And I’ve Never Kissed a Chipmunk

However, I am most excellent at Ping Pong. And by “most excellent” I mean I can hold my own. If my opponent is blindfolded and using their non-dominant hand. But that’s beside the point; what I’m getting at here is that Veggie Tales is a pretty legit program. Ask anyone.

This past week I did not go on any exciting adventures to see cool natural phenomena. Nor did I get any fancy tattoos to remind me of loved ones or to illustrate important thoughts to keep in mind. I’m not ready to break any major news to my folks just yet, either.

I’m still here though, a fact that I’m starting to be more okay with. And I’m still just me; another fact that I’m starting to be more okay with. If there was a pill would you take it? I’ve been thinking about that, and I don’t think I could, much as it would make a whole lot of things a whole lot easier. But I don’t know, I figure I am who I am because of all the things I’ve thought and seen and experienced, and if those things are hard so be it, watch me get something out of them just to spite the cosmos for throwing them at me. Ha! Take that, cosmos.

Plus I just kind of like being the freak-weird kid; I just tell myself that I’m special and everyone else should be jealous of how extremely cool I am.

But seriously, the way I see it, I’ve got some perspectives that I wouldn’t have if I were just a regular kid (boy or girl; now there’s an odd thought). And I cannot trade that away for cushiness, and if I’m not on this end of things, where does that put me? The side that can’t see past labels and categories and just doesn’t understand? I would rather understand. And I feel like that understanding kind of spreads to other areas, making me less quick to slap judgments on people based on lack of knowledge or whatever.

I remember always being fascinated by the Holocaust ever since we first started learning about it in school. In a wow-that-is-freaking-horrendous kind of way, but still. One thing I’ve thought a lot about, in that area, is that, given the choice, I would choose to be one of the ones banished to a concentration camp and worked and starved and brutally mistreated and all that over one of the ones doing any of that stuff to other human beings. In a second.