So I had a lot of options of
things I could have talked about this week. I could have discussed Mother’s day
or the anniversary of my grandmother’s murder or how I’m still so indecisive
about what I’ll be doing next fall or how I’m trying to build up confidence or finally write
that piece as to why I go by Dupree and not Sarah…
Basically I have a lot of ideas.
But I don’t really the emotional capacity to write about any of them. I don’t
know what has been wrong with me lately. I don’t want to eat, I don’t want to
talk to friends. Curling up in bed with a book is the only thing that sounds
good and even that is a last resort. So because I just don’t give a damn at the
moment I thought I would post my summer bucket list. I made it the other day
when I was trying to get out of my funk. Didn’t help much but it was
interesting.
Summer 2012 Bucket List (In no
particular order)
Get a tan
Go on 5 dates (be asked for at
least 3)
Allow myself to receive help
Raft down Provo River
Climb Timp?
Decide what I want to do next
fall
Become dining hall coordinator
Go to Nickel Arcade
Sing more
Go to at least 5 concerts
Read at least one intellectual
book to counteract all my YA novels
Be honest
Hold someone’s hand
Tell HER how I feel
Get over people
Learn to let go of the pain
Refill my Prozac and cut down on
the anxiety/ learn how to relax
Paint
Be kissed
Write my grandfather and
missionary
DANCE like no one is watching
Draw out the tattoo I’ve wanted
since childhood
Learn to trust people but not
blab about every inconsequential detail
Be more social
Become comfortable with my body
Love myself enough to stop
wanting to hurt myself
Love the new “Bob”
Tell my secrets to Mom
Stop waiting for Mat to show up
and apologize
Treasure the happy moments
Take pictures
Feel sexy as much as possible
Do the ropes course for real
Moonlight ski rides at Sundance
Longboard down the canyon
Visit Timp caves
80’s & 90’s night
Don’t be so quick to judge
Stop skipping meals, just eat
healthier
Fix Rici, show her some love
Be comfortable as a misfit but
don’t disrespect your bosses
Walk in the PRIDE parade
Have an open mind at mandatory
church
Create a budget
Dance in a lightening/rain storm
Watch Modern Family
Laugh at myself
Lay in the hammock with someone
See a show at the SCERA
….
And I reserve the right to add
more to it. I’ll let you guys know if I happen to cross any off.
Love you guys!
Song of the Week
Shake It Out – Glee cover (Florence + The Machine)
I’ve been listening to this on
repeat. It’s helped me calm down. I like it. I guess that’s all I have to say
about that.
UPDATE!
The other night I had a jam
session with some friends. We all just sang random stuff and then it was just a
couple of us singing the Black Parade. So I think this applies to singing and
being more social (and maybe being more comfortable with myself because I have
a TERRIBLE singing voice :P ).
And the other day I was able to
let a friend pay for my lunch. Receiving help!
Love you guys!
-Dupree
I love this post. :) There is something fun about bucket lists, and there are some great things on yours. Keep us updated!
ReplyDeleteI have clinomania sometimes...but not nearly as often as I did during my time at BYU...
ReplyDeleteTry fish oil and vitamin B instead of prozac.
oh, and remember that I love you.
And that you're welcome to come visit me in ogden anytime you need a break! :)
Who says YA novels can't be intellectual?
ReplyDeleteYA novels are probably the best ones to read.
Also, I think you should ask for all 5 dates...but that's just me. :)