My coming out can be summed up in one Youtube video, from my favorite show, found here (please watch it or nothing I write will make a hellva lotta sense)
My whole adult life I had been with men too. I had liked having sex with them, even enjoyed some of them. But it wasn't until I kissed a woman, had sex with a woman, fell for a woman, that I felt alive! That is not to say that men I had been with weren't wonderful, caring, loving men. They just weren't for me. The women that I have been with, they have been glasses.
I love women and want a girlfriend. Whenever I see pictures like this it makes me want to fall in love with a beautiful blue jean femme who loves to work outside, ride horses, read, drink wine, take long bathes, go hiking and camping, has long hair... I want to fall for a beautiful woman and be in love with her and her with me for a long long time.
I am a non-straight, bi-pan-queer female who wants a girlfriend. Maybe I'm not ready for her right now, but I want to meet her someday, when we are both ready.