… For Them
I wish I was good enough for you. I wish I would have kissed you before you left. I wish that you didn’t feel the need to write me a generic letter three months later. I wish you would have just been honest and harsh and shooed me off.
I wish you could have loved me like you love her. I wish you knew my eye color.
I wish I wasn’t as honest with you. I don’t wish for things to stay the same, I like the way they’ve changed, but I wish I didn’t want more.
I wish you would have remembered my birthday. I wish I was more to you than just an outlet. I wish you needed me when I was around, not only when I was out of reach.
I wish you could have seen how much I loved you. I wish you weren’t so blinded.
I wish I could be honest with you. I wish rules and fear didn’t dominate my emotions.
… For Me
I wish I was good enough.
I wish I was proud of myself.
I wish I wasn’t so restless.
I wish I knew when to hold my tongue.
I wish I knew how to flirt and be cute.
I wish I had the courage to wear my “gay” tee-shirt.
I wish I had the courage to follow my heart, my dreams.
I just wish I knew how to be comfortable with me.