… For Them
I wish I was good enough for you. I wish I would have kissed you before you left. I wish that you didn’t feel the need to write me a generic letter three months later. I wish you would have just been honest and harsh and shooed me off.
I wish you could have loved me like you love her. I wish you knew my eye color.
I wish I wasn’t as honest with you. I don’t wish for things to stay the same, I like the way they’ve changed, but I wish I didn’t want more.
I wish you would have remembered my birthday. I wish I was more to you than just an outlet. I wish you needed me when I was around, not only when I was out of reach.
I wish you could have seen how much I loved you. I wish you weren’t so blinded.
I wish I could be honest with you. I wish rules and fear didn’t dominate my emotions.
… For Me
I wish I was good enough.
I wish I was proud of myself.
I wish I wasn’t so restless.
I wish I knew when to hold my tongue.
I wish I knew how to flirt and be cute.
I wish I had the courage to wear my “gay” tee-shirt.
I wish I had the courage to follow my heart, my dreams.
I just wish I knew how to be comfortable with me.
I hope...
ReplyDeleteI hope you know how much we love you.
I hope you know how much we care.
I hope you find the peace you need.
I hope you find the love you deserve.
But, more than anything else, I hope you find a love and appreciation for yourself. For you are a beautiful soul with a heart of gold.
Truly, I hope you realize that we love and care so much for you. These aren't casual words, I wouldn't say them if I didn't mean them. Take some comfort in knowing that we cherish you for who you are. For your honesty. For your sweet words. For you.
All my love,
MJ
I concur.
DeleteThank you... That means so much
DeleteDupree, this is amazing. Thank you for posting something so meaningful. I think you just made my day, so we're off to a good start :)
ReplyDeleteAnd I am glad :)
DeleteDupree, you've done it again. Another moving, blog post of poetry.
ReplyDeleteI agree with MJ. I hope you know you're loved, and I hope that you find your own self love. But it's a hard process and we're all always going through it.
You're so awesome. I'm glad I got to meet you in real life--because you're just amazing. And you're really good at raw emotional poetry. ;)
You're amazing, Dupree. And you're enough! By the way, I can always relate to your posts, and they're very moving. *Sigh* Nobody should have to go through that heartbreak.
ReplyDeleteBut I believe in you. I believe you're brave and strong and smart and that you'll become comfortable with the amazing person you are. All my best, girl.
Dupree, you're a pretty rad chick. And you're a good writer, too.
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