To fight depression I generally fall back on two things: image sharing sites such as Tumblr and IMGfave or/and listening to music. While trying to fight off another attack this afternoon I plugged in my headphones and booted up my Tumblr. I think the reason I fall back onto both of these is the idea of resonance. Listening to lyrics or reading a quote that seem like they are speaking exactly to my situation helps me to believe I’m not alone. It’s a terribly selfish notion considering I shouldn’t wish this on anyone, but I delight in finding people who are struggling like me.
So to remember these lyrics that I liked I started a list in my journal titled Lyrics For The Soul. Unfortunately I ignored it for a few good months but I’ve been trying to update it more. Anyways… here are some of my lyrics:
This was no accident; this was a therapeutic chain of events.
The path to Heaven leads through miles of crowded hell.
First thought when I wake up is my God he’s beautiful, so I put on my makeup and pray for a miracle.
Grab someone sexy.
You can’t choose what stays and what fades away.
You are the hole in my head, you are the space in my bed, you are the silence in between what I thought and what I said.
Would you leave me if I told you what I’ve done, and would you need me if I told you what I’ve become? Because it’s so easy to say it to a crowd but it’s so hard, my love, to say it to you now.
I don’t know what to do with you because you don’t know what you do to me.
If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy I could have won.
And if you are so God damn naïve say a prayer for me.
The preacher man said Jesus saves if we walk this way.
Maybe we’re friends, maybe we’re more, maybe it’s just my imagination but I see you stare just a little too long and it makes me start to wonder.
Do not ask the price I’ve paid I must live with my quiet rage. Tame the ghosts in my head that run wild and wish me dead. Should you shake my ash to the wind, Lord forget all my sins. Oh, let me die where I lie beneath the curse of my lover’s eyes.
Cause there is no drink or drug I’ve tried to rid the curse of my lover’s eyes. And I feel numb beneath your tongue, your strength just makes me feel less strong.
I let Satan inside of me and now I’m dammed for eternity and he’ll come for you next so stay the hell away from me.
And they don’t understand what I mean when I say I paid the fee, so keep the Lord to you and leave the Devil to me.
Did you even miss me? Did you even notice I was gone? Did you even think to look in the last place you saw me? Or are you already moving on?
I don’t have a choice but I still choose you.
I don’t love you but I always will.
I wish I was strong enough to lift, not one, but the both of us.
After all these things are done, I think I love you better now.
A loveless romantic, all that he really wants is someone to want him back.
We’re just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl.
I’m not good at talking but I’ll sing you lullabies.
I never said I’d be anything but bad to you; your perception of me was always skewed.
Have you heard, Hummingbird, he’s happy without me. Did I fail nightingale if I’m still lonely?
There’ll be no comfort in the shade of the shadows thrown but I’d be yours if you’d be mine.