I’ve started so many posts for today but I couldn’t finish any of them. I can barely finish any of my thoughts lately. My reality is becoming blurred with my dreams and I fear I’m slowly losing my mind.
I might find my bearings when I go home to Oregon tomorrow for the week. I haven’t been there for more than a day in a year and a half. But what if I don’t? What if I never figure out what I’m doing? I feel so stagnated. And I figure this will change once work starts up and I have a definite purpose but what about in September when work is over and school begins and I don’t know where to go?
And even beyond the realm of what I am doing next year. What about the ex-best friend who was so disgusted by my attraction to girls we are no longer friends? How do I let that go and move on? Or the girl who I can't broach the subject of me liking her or figuring out if she likes me? How do you do that?
So while generally it’s the other way around, I need advice today. What should I do?
Cough Syrup- Glee
Life is too short to even care at all, oh
I'm losing my mind, losing my mind, losing control
If I could find a way to see this straight
I'd run away
To some fortune that I,
I should have found by now