Wednesday, April 18, 2012

love all around...

* Play this song in a separate tab while reading this post :) It is amazing and I listened to it while I wrote this entire post. It’s, “The Letter that Never Came” from the Series of Unfortunate Events Film Score. Enjoy ( *

Dear readers, family, and cherished friends. I am writing to say how amazing things have gotten as of recently. It is surprising just how much people really do love and care for you even when you might not realize it.

Recently BYU has released an It Gets Better Video ( and you may or may not know that I am actually a part of that video! It has slowly started to get spread all around the internet and it is amazing how many people have seen it and reached out to me. (It is more fascinating because I myself didn’t share the video via facebook so people are actually seeing this outside of my influence! So amazing)

I just wanted to share some of the incredible messages I have received on here to show you that the world does get better. I took a leap, made a choice and my life has been filled with love and joy as of late and your life can be too.

Amanda, “Hey. I stumbled upon a BYU “It Gets Better” video that you were in. I also watched your own video afterwards. I just wanted to let you know how proud I am of you for having the strength to accept who you are. I also want to let you know that I love and support you. I used to struggle through feelings of bisexuality. It was really hard on me, especially because I was Mormon. I thought what I was feeling was wrong, but I am happy to know that there are others who go through this. We are not alone. Thank you for your bravery.”

Michelle, “I just recently watched the ground breaking video that was produced by BYU. Im sure you will get a lot of people asking you about it. However I didn’t need to ask because I already just kind of knew. I just want you to know I love you just the way you are and hope you feel like you belong in the ward. Its not an easy thing to deal with. We all have our own things we must deal with. I know we are not like BFF or anything but I want you to know i’m grateful for our frinedship and that you are a totally amazing person.”

Holly, “I saw that it gets better video you are in. That was SO brave of you. I am so proud to have you as a friend.”

Erin, “ Just want you to know I’m SO PROUD of all of you at BYU who took a stand and posted those videos on You Tube for “It Gets Better”. Please know that I love you because you are you and you have my whole-hearted support :) You’re a rock star!”

The following were messages from friends and family sent to my mom which ROCKS!

Rachel, “My aunt up in San Fran posted a link to an it gets better video and I was surprised to see &#$^!( in it! Congrats on raising an awesome son. The video was so touching and moved me to tears. It takes guts to stand up and be proud.”

Wendy, “You know we’re going to be friends forever and you will never rid yourself of me right ;) Well, I’m just going to be bold and say that I LOVE your son @^(*#^. I always have and I always will. Through a link off someone’s facebook, I saw the It Gets Better clip and there was your son! I wasn’t shocked, but relieved for him and wish him ALL the goodness in the world. Now for you, as my friend, and as hi mom, I can only imagine this has been quite an experience.”

I hope you are loved and know that I love you even though I may not know you and may never meet you; still know that you are loved.


  1. It warmed my heart to see the video. Thanks for your courage to open up and share. I hope to see more positive change in the church and the church's membership and things like this help, I believe, for the most part.

  2. YES! I cannot tell you how ecstatic I am at the production and publication of this video! Thank you and everyone in it for being open and getting this out there. I so wish USGA was around when I was at BYU, but I *just* missed it.

    I like how your "name" looks like censored profanity in this post. It "sounded" funny in my mind as I read it.

    1. I just missed it too. I graduated the spring of the year it started. But, then again, I don't know if I would have had the courage at the time to join. I wish and hope I would have...

  3. I wish I was in the video. I knew it was going on, just never took the time to share my story. Fail. But I'm so glad other people like yourself put in the time to make it. It's so awesome and I'm so proud of you!