Remember how last week I threw out into the universe my desire for more love, asking if there was anywhere I was withholding it??
Well, ask and ye shall receive, my friends.
I'm not one to hate people. I don't think I've ever actually hated anyone. And I don't really hold grudges either. I don't like to hold on to stuff (physical or otherwise). Ask anyone who's ever lived with me.
The funny thing is, right when I try to be more loving and giving, an opportunity presents itself. A challenge, if you will. For my job, I work as part of a team. It is me and the same three other people day after day. I spend more time with these people than with anyone else. One of them is a new favorite friend. Another is a silly woman who is always chipper and pleasant to be around. The third is a classic drama addict. Everything is DRAMA! Something always has to be going wrong. Someone is always saying something she disagrees with. The government is out to get her. So are the administrators at work. And she's always bitching about something. Of late, her bitching has started to include me. I hear from other work friends that she has been saying this or that and criticizing such and such. Mostly, I don't care. She can criticize my working all she wants. I'm still a damn fast and efficient worker. I get my shit done. She creates drama for the sake of drama, of having something to talk about. But when she starts to criticize me personally, my inner lion rears up and I get defensive. I don't want to sit with her a lunch. I don't want to spend time in the break room with her. I avoid interacting with her if I can. I don't want to play her two-faced game.
So my challenge is to learn to love someone who is attacking me. Possible?? I guess we'll see. But I'm up for the challenge.