I love to hike. It tends to clear my mind; give me an opportunity to remove a lot of the noise that seems to endlessly plague my day-to-day routine.
Well, I
was on a hike with one of my bisexual girlfriends on Saturday and we got
on the subject of fantasies. I obviously made some snarky comment about
firemen and lots of "hoses" but, as I dwelt on the concept throughout the day, and as I was falling asleep that night, I
started to wonder what my real fantasies were. Not merely sexual (I mean, really, who doesn't like a good uniform?), but what are some of my deepest desires? What do I long for?
Anyway, long story short, I woke up beaming yesterday after dreaming I had adopted six (yes, 6!) kids and I was happily in some relationship with some unknown guy. So, moral of the dream, my subconscious' fantasy is to be happily committed with lots of kids. I'm okay with that.
Since waking up Sunday morning I have been thinking a lot about what I want out of this life and how I am going to achieve my dreams, goals, and greatest aspirations. Honestly, the path my life is currently on does not completely coalesce with the direction I want it to go long term. I am currently working on it but I still have a long way to go. But I am going to get there.
Do I want to have six kids? I don't know. I want to have kids and I DON'T want to say 'no' to the idea of six kids but I don't think that is going to be a benchmark target for me. I do know that I want to find someone - one person - I want to spend my life with and I hope to have the family, the kids, the house with the picket fence, and the dog. Someday. My greatest goal today? To make sure I am preparing myself to be the guy that gets it!What are some of your dreams and fantasies?
I was laying next to a two year old at camp the other day and my exact thought process was "Fuck! I want children"
ReplyDeleteI don't want to want children. I'm in no place to care for another human being.
But I do want that whole marriage thing. I think the beauty of being pan is that I can see myself spending my life with either a guy or a girl. I know not a lot of people have that luxury so I'm very thankful for it.
Anyways... that was my rant.
I actually dream of my house more than I do the family I want to be there.
hahaha. well, at least you've got it in the right order! :)
DeleteI dream about houses all the time too. Mostly because I am convinced I can make anything beautiful and liveable.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing your thoughts, Dupree! I wish you all the happiness in the world!
As whiney as it sounds, I dream of not dying alone.
ReplyDeletethat's not whiny. I think we all want that.
DeleteMy greatest fear in this life is that I will be alone forever. I think it's a beautiful dream!
DeleteI think our dreams and fantasies tend to change and grow as we do. Well...some of them. I still want a tree house. And a garden.
ReplyDeleteI love gardens and tree houses. Maybe we can have neighboring ones someday!
DeleteI still want a 1966 mustang with pony interior.
ReplyDeleteAnd I want a six pack...maybe I should work harder on that.
It's kinda weird thinking about dreams sometimes because I already got my dream girl.
I think my real dream is to have more time to spend with her.
Probably that means no more work, which would be awesome.