I love to hike. It tends to clear my mind; give me an opportunity to remove a lot of the noise that seems to endlessly plague my day-to-day routine.Well, I
was on a hike with one of my bisexual girlfriends on Saturday and we got
on the subject of fantasies. I obviously made some snarky comment about
firemen and lots of "hoses" but, as I dwelt on the concept throughout the day, and as I was falling asleep that night, I
started to wonder what my real fantasies were.
Not merely sexual (I
mean, really, who doesn't like a good uniform?), but what are some of my
deepest desires? What do I long for?
Anyway, long story short, I woke up beaming yesterday after
dreaming I had adopted six (yes, 6!) kids and I was happily in some
relationship with some unknown guy. So, moral of the dream, my
subconscious' fantasy is to be happily committed with lots of kids. I'm
okay with that.
Since waking up Sunday morning I have been thinking a lot about what I want out of this life and how I am going to achieve my dreams, goals, and greatest aspirations. Honestly, the path my life is currently on does not completely coalesce with the direction I want it to go long term. I am currently working on it but I still have a long way to go. But I am going to get there.Do I want to have six kids? I don't know. I want to have kids and I DON'T want to say 'no' to the idea of six kids but I don't think that is going to be a benchmark target for me. I do know that I want to find someone - one person - I want to spend my life with and I hope to have the family, the kids, the house with the picket fence, and the dog. Someday. My greatest goal today? To make sure I am preparing myself to be the guy that gets it!What are some of your dreams and fantasies?