Thursday, July 5, 2012
What? I'm Gay??
Sometimes I forget that I'm gay.
It's not something I think about every second. Yes, like girls. Yes, I am in a loveship with one of the most amazing, most beautiful, charming and funny people ever (and yes, she's female). Yes, I have a rainbow sash draped over the seat in my car and an equality sticker on my water bottle. I advocate and support. I post things of Facebook about gay rights and write for an LGBT blog and have a LOT of gay friends.
But being gay isn't my whole life. It isn't the only thing that occupies my thoughts.
I think about trees.
I think about people.
And about nature.
I think about food.
I think about moving away.
I think about Tiffany.
About my family.
About my art
The other night Tif mentioned something about us both being girls and I remember thinking, "Huh. We ARE both girls, aren't we?" Sometimes it catches me off guard. I forget that to most people, my relationship and my love aren't "normal." Well why aren't they? It all feels normal to me. I've never felt anything more natural than loving the way I love. It's so natural I don't think about it. But I'm getting a little off track here.
I guess my point is that we are more than gay. We are sisters and brothers, friends and neighbors, coworkers and colleagues. We are lovers. We are artists and business people. We are lawyers and engineers. We are musicians and designers and students and CEOs. There have been times in my life where I have gotten lost in just one of these things, where I get stuck in defining myself by a single label. But we are so much more than labels. We are so much more than just one of these things.
So I like when I forget that I'm gay. Or a musician. Or smart. Or whatever else. Because it means I'm not lost in a label. It means I'm letting myself be whatever I am rather than getting stuck inside of a box.
And who likes boxes anyway? (though they are rather handy when you are moving, I suppose).
Does this ever happen to anyone else? Am I the only one that forgets?