Striped Horses or Walking Barcodes?

So, I go to BYU, I follow many parts of the honor code, but one thing I can’t handle is BYU’s strict rules on dating members of the same gender. I’m gay. I want to date men. So, as such, I break the honor code and go on dates with men.

Now, that’s not to say that I don’t date women. I do. I’ve gone out with girls for many reasons.

First, my job puts me in a very social environment. Apparently, I’m quite charming and, even more surprising, I'm very popular with ladies. This could be because women are always attracted to the men they can’t get or (more likely) because I’m a tall blond and women just assume that that means I’m attractive. Regardless, my popularity leads to many girls asking me out. Some get creative. They make me little designer cards with their names and numbers on them. One girl even made me a cake that, once eaten, revealed her number. I should say no. I should not be leading them on. But I say yes. Why? I don’t want these women (who, by the way, are almost strictly freshmen) to lose confidence in themselves. They built up the courage, and turning them down is the same as telling them they did something wrong. Also, I do enjoy these dates (with the exception of a certain OCD girl who… well, let me just say that OCD can go WAY to far).

A second reason I go on dates with girls is because sometimes I think it would be awesome to hang out with a certain girl. Get some one on one time and have fun.

Now, what’s the biggest problem with a gay guy going on dates with ladies? I can lead these young ladies on. I DO NOT want to do that. I’ve had way too many of these girls tell me that they like me and I don’t want anyone to get the wrong idea. So, my rule is no second dates. I generally find this to be a good rule and I strictly adhere to it.

However, I have no such rule for dating men. So, why have I never gone on multiple dates with a single man? One big reason is that I find myself not liking the men I date. They only want sex, they have dry personalities, you name it. I just don’t like them that much. Yet, there have been a few I wanted to date more, particularly one guy.

Let’s call him Isaac. Isaac and I went on I date that I thoroughly enjoyed. Whereas most people (including me) would describe a zebra has a striped horse, he would describe them as walking bar codes. Yeah, he was that unique person that you don’t find very often. As we were driving around after the date, we began to talk about fun, after date stuff (some would consider what we were doing flirting). Then the topic of religion got brought up. I should let you know, I’m kind of sick of religion (Why? Story for another day). This guy talks about the Mormon Church and how much he loves it. He wants to settle and marry a woman within a few years and make babies with her. Right now, he claims, he’s trying to get this “thing” out of his head. I could not justify a second date no matter how much I wanted to. Thus, I’m here, in Provo, having never gone on a real second date.

And, just because it deserves mention, I LOVED pride. Everything about it. Signing off till next time!