At work, every day, I keep a running list of things I need to get done during the work day. By the end of my eight-hour shift, I have created a list of things I need to accomplish when I get home that evening. I also keep long-term lists going, too. I always have a list of things I want to write about on this blog as well as my personal Website, http://mcwilleyfactor.com. I keep a list of life goals, six-month plans, five-year objectives, business ideas, book ideas, etc. I am always writing things down and tucking them safely away.
I don't know why or how I got in the habit but, if I don't keep my lists active and up to date, I start losing my mind and I can't accomplish the things I want and need to get done. Truthfully, I think I'm ADD and if I don't keep track of these things, I will move on and never truly accomplish anything. But I think that is a different thought to pursue on perhaps a different day.
Anyway, lists and lots on my mind. A friend of mine has approached me about starting an online media business and I am thrilled and totally excited. Another friend wants to co-author a book for teens and young adults. Still another friend wants compile and edit a series on self worth and body image, and I am still in process of writing my own memoir AND I want to compile and edit a series of stories about coming in to oneself prior to coming out.
Plus I write for this blog and, as I mentioned, I also have a opinion/editorial Website. Writing is a passion of mine. I studied communications in college and I love to write now; it makes sense that it is such a huge part of my life. But, there are only so many hours in the day so I am restructuring my life and my approach to my lists and my writing resources in an attempt to reach my goals.
Starting next week, I am going to use this blog as a way for me to write first-draft chapters of my memoir. I already spend time writing for this site, why not double up on my personal expectations and let "Breaking the Silence" help me break mine!
That being said, I still have my running list of things I wanted to talk about on this site so, today, I am going to purge my mind and cross things off my list of topics for this site.
Family versus Family of Choice -
The only way I am able to find the strength to move on is through many of you - my family of choice. Having friends and adopted family members are often all that keep me going. I rely heavily on them during the hard times and (I hope) I fill the same role for them as needed, too.
Gay Bowling -
From older biker dudes with Do Rags, tattoos, and leather vests, to lipstick lesbians and muscle twinks, the spectrum of LGBTQ diversity is pretty well represented. I love going to the seedy bowling ally in Hickville, Kentucky, because I never, EVER sense judgement. Even when someone doesn't like someone else, there is respect given by both parties. It is impressive and encouraging to say the least. It makes me want to be a better person on top of a better bowler!
Dating Apps -
So, in today's technology age, how do we work around that problem and make finding each other easier? Dating applications like Growlr, Grndr, Scruff, etc. In principle, I think things like this are great. In application, I think it can be awful. I am so sick and tired of having messages sent to me that either ask for more than I'm willing to give or quickly volunteer way more than I want. It's outrageous but, that being said, I'm not sure I'm willing to go back to the times folded hankies of varying colors in my back pocket.
Out Athletes, Actors, and Politicians -
This past week we recognized National Coming Out Day. As a result, I posted the following "dream" on my Facebook Wall:
Today is National Coming Out Day. It is my greatest hope that there comes a time in my life when a special day like this isn't necessary.
A time when we love all of our brothers and sisters regardless of gender, gender identity, race, nationality, or sexual attraction.
A time when all of God's children feel comfortable enough to be who He made them to be.
A time when a person's sexual identity doesn't determine his or her place in their parents' hearts or homes, in the pews of their churches, or their ability to stand (or kneel) at an alter and marry the love of their life.
A time when love supersedes hate and compassion overtakes judgement.
But, until that day, I want to thank all of the gay, lesbian, bi, trans, and queer people I know for being some of the strongest, most beautiful examples of humanity I know. Thank you for being you and thank you for influencing my life in so many wonderful ways.
Initially I received a few nice comments supporting my thoughts but I did receive one ignorant one:
"Hm so i love all my brother's and sister's regardless of all that jibber jabber doesn't mean i agree with it love ya though"
Jibber jabber, eh? That is what all of the challenges and heartbreak and duress that being gay and loving someone means to this person.
Coming out is tough. Too tough sometimes. As I slowly crawl out of my closet I gain an even greater appreciation for those who have the courage to come out and be their own authentic selves - regardless of how well known they are in the public eye.
I know it's not much, but in my own small way I want to thank some of the gay men and women in the public eye for their willingness to be positive examples for all of us!
Matt Bomer and his partner and three kids
Neil Patrick Harris and his husband
Jane Lynch and her wife and two step daughters
Portia DeRossi and her wife Ellen Degeneres
Ricky Martin and his boy friend and twin sons
Anderson Cooper and his boyfriend
Professional boxer and former olympian Orlando Cruz
First openly-gay politician, Harvey Milk
Wanda Sykes and her wife
Olympic diver Matthew Mitcham
And many, many more. To the rest of us who aren't in the limelight, I want to thank all of you for your examples and for being you. You all mean far more to me than you will ever know.